A Tale of Self-Diagnosis and Shame
I also suffer sometimes from benign positional vertigo, but mine seems to be tied to the condition of my sinuses. It sucks, big time.
Vertigo sucks bigtime. Earlier this year I got hit with what the doctor thinks was something called "benign positional vertigo," and it was anything but benign. For three days straight, I couldn't walk and was vomiting nonstop. My saint of a husband is an excellent nurse. 😊
The doctor suspects my GAD (general anxiety disorder) had something to do with it, but just because something is "all in your head," it doesn't mean it's not real. My anxiety has brought on irritable bowel syndrome as well (though my GI doc thinks it's sort of a chicken and egg situation there - the brain can make one's intestines hurt like heck, but then the intestines can make one's brain freak out, all through the magic of neuro chemistry). Despite the fact that some folks think it's something mystical and mysterious (and I guess it sort of is), the brain is simply an organ like the heart or lungs or stomach, and all the organs can affect each other. It was hard for me to wrap my head around, but apparently a problem in the intestines can indeed cause mental health problems.
And, yeah, I tend to dive into Google self diagnosis sessions, too. Everything always seems to add up to cancer, my hubby tries to tell me that I don't have cancer, and so far (luckily), he's been right. Google can be a dangerous tool for anxiety sufferers. 😱
I hope your vertigo stays away for good!
“Ecorche vif” is such a great term. 8 years ago dizziness descended into me 24/7, non-stop, and as I’ve now learned, my reaction to it (fear! desperation! get rid of this at all costs!) only exaggerated the symptoms until I lost.literally.everything. I isolated for years, lost my film career, and most friendships. It was hell on earth. 6 years in I finally got a proper diagnosis (spontaneous Mal de Débarquement or now often referred to as Non-motion triggered oscillatory vertigo) and through medication and a willingness to just live with it, changed everything. I still have dizziness 24/7 but I’ve adapted, the rocking is wayyyyy less and tolerable, and I’m grateful for the life lesson that I can “be well” even when I don’t “feel well.”
I created a limited series on dizzy disorders once I got my feet back under me. You may want to check it out. So happy to hear you’re doing well.
Start with season 1 (Body Rebalanced.)
I'm glad you got help at the end. Health is so important.
Thank you for writing this
Love and relate to your story. I have finally figured out myself the cause of my vertigo sessions. And yes, it is stress related and only made worse by my monkey mind thought process. I wrote about it recently. Thanks for the follow!
Glad you went to the doctor and are taking care of yourself. And thanks for sharing this. Someone with related issues may benefit. Planting seeds.